Goodbye to 2010.....
The year 2010 was quite a year - not such in a good sense in my case, but oh were there lessons learned. So much has happened in 2010 to my family and I that I am sooo looking forward to 2011!
Where do I begin? First, I guess I am writing this post because on my poll, more personal content is winning high on the list - so here it goes I guess. =)
My marriage...
Nine years of marriage was about to end. During our 9th year anniversary, my husband and I decided to separate. Ouch. We had gotten to a place of "routine" I guess - nothing extraordinarly or ever out of the ordinary did we do. We were living as though life had done passed us by and we were merely waiting for our demise. Sad, huh? Especially when we had only been married for 9 years and were only ages 35 and 36. But that was us. We got back together a few weeks later, only to end completely separated with divorce papers filed a few months later. How did we get here? In the beginning of our relationship I thought that this would NEVER happen to us - we were strong and our relationship was strong. I guess marriages/relationships are just like anything else - if you do not tend to them, nurture them, then it too will fade and disappear. Needless to say, many months went by and over $3000 in lawyer fees - we got back together! And this time, it was for good. I think it took us getting so close to being forever "apart" that we had to go through those months of separation. I know, myself, that I learned a lot. We "both" had some issues to work on and we really had to work on them if we were going to make our marriage a success and we are doing this daily. And, knock on wood, things have been good and we have been back together since about mid-July now.
So here is my piece of advice (for what it is worth):
1. Keep your faith in God - for He knows the plans that He has for you and everything is in His timing. When you are going through hard times, thank him for the joys that you have had and that you are about to have. He wants a close relationship with all of us and, I feel, that sometimes he puts us in trials to gain that relationship back y drawing you closer to Him. (Again, just my opinion).
2. If you have to keep questioning a decision then, most times, it is a bad decision. Your gut can tell you a lot of things (which I think it is God's way to reach some of us). If you are staying up all night worrying over it, let it go and hand the situation over to God. Put it on the backburner and look at it another day.
3. Believe in yourself first before you can be expected to believe in anyone else.
4. And, most times, the grass is not greener on the other side. Just saying!
My mom...
As many of you regular followers know, my mom was diagnosed with multiple myeloma in July of 2010. We had no idea she had this form of cancer or for how long she had had it. She first had fractured a few vertebra in her back and had to have "cement-like" material placed in between the vertebra. And then it was weeks later, after she was still declining, that the doctors finally found the cancer -an incurable cancer. My mom is only 58.
And the reason for her fractured bones in her back was due to the form of cancer that she had.
My mom has been the "rock" of the family and now she is the one needing the help. It is sad how rapidly she has detoriorated. But she is still fighting. She is doing somewhat better; at least now she is able to walk around a bit - at first, she could not even do that and she could not even lift herself to get up out of bed. Chemo has been okay with her but now they are wanting to up it to 3-times-a-week, so that does not sound good to me. They said they would be treating her cancer aggressively as when they found it, it appeared to be in the last stages already - seriously, how can you miss cancer that long of time when she had regular checkups, bloodwork, etc? But the good in all of the bad is that she and my dad have rekindled their love for one another. My dad now takes care of her, buys her everything, and just spoils her and it makes her feel good!
My boys...
Jonathan turned 8-years-old in October and Joshua turned 2-years-old in June. They have had quite a year themselves. Jonathan has made some really wonderful friends and Joshua...well, Joshua is just being Joshua. He is a very stern 2-year-old and he is already set in his ways...lol. It is hard to believe how different two children can be. But I am so thankful for them and I could not imagine them not being in my life. They are my world!
Me...
A lot has changed in my views, expectations, and realizations due to the events that took place in my life this year. I have became more humble than ever (and I thought that I was pretty humble before). I have realized that if you don't get your house completely cleaned today, there is always tomorrow. I have realized that it is better to spend that quality time with the people you love because you never know what is around the corner for you or them. I have realized that people matter - not things. I have realized that even if you are having a bad day, offer that smile or helping hand to someone else - they could be having a bad week or month. I have learned that it is never, N-E-V-E-R too late to apologize for anything that has weighed heavily on your mind. You may not get the response that you needed but at least you put in the effort and did your part to make things right. And, most of all, I realized that I totally love blogging more than I ever thought and I have made so many "online" friends through this blog that I am grateful to each and every one of you!
So....GOODBYE 2010 and I welcome you 2011!!!!
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